This "vent" is more of something I am fighting with myself. Covid-19 really messed up chi. Mentally I am exhausted, and drained. Work is like it's on auto pilot. Since we rescheduled from April 26 to Sept 13, 2020 I have yet to find my excitement. My FH and I have been together for so long that the wedding was something I wanted to take his last name. Ya know...traditions? Yesterday I couldn't tell if i was having dress regret or its because I havent seen my dress since February and I began to look at new dresses. I also have the time now to change/edit/improve themes, center pieces and other decorations. We also have people that couldn't make the April date and now can make the Sept date. Everything is so back and forth back and forth my brain is about to split. Also, Covid has me gained about 12 pounds and trying to be motivated and stay strong without the social group is difficult. It's like a tidal wave of depression and I feel like I am drowning in it. Any of you other ladies going through the same thing? How are you dealing with it?
**Note**: I am not seeking attention, not looking for more negativity, yes I've dealt with really terrible depression in the past. Just seeking help from another source who could be going through something similar.