i honestly just want to cancel the wedding and get married just him and i in the church.

I'm feeling pretty down, honestly I can't stop crying. I've dreamt about my wedding day my whole life. I've been obsessed with weddings and couldn't wait for the day that I could plan mine. Now that it's actually here, I just want it to be over. My two best friends that are maid of honor and bridesmaid have been hanging out a lot recently and not even inviting me but then when I ask them if they want to hang out they have other plans. So my feelings were already a little hurt from that. But its whatever, I have a different schedule than everyone so it's hard for me to be able to do things so I understand. But today takes the cake. It's my nephew's 13th birthday. I've been close to my nephew his entire life. When he wasn't with his parents, he was with me. Him and his sister are like my own kids to me. He and I have always had a special bond that he didn't have with anyone else. So earlier I get a snap from my younger brother that is a baby picture of him and my older brother and sister-in-law's (his parents) is in the background. So I ask if my brother is babysitting and he sends me another snap and says "no it's his party." My dad and stepmom, my brother, my older brothers mom, grandma, aunt, my niece and nephew's other aunt and a family friend are all there. No one even thought to tell me that it was happening. My dad and brother's or the whole family and family friend are always going to dinner or to the pumpkin patch or on day trips and not inviting me. Cool. I work night shift and have a crazy schedule so I cant make it to things. But sometimes I'm off and they dont even think to ask ahead of time. But this just takes the cake. They're moving 8 hours a way in a month and they know that my nephew is probably the second most important person to me next to fh. I'm not working tonight and would have loved to go but didn't even know it was happening. My feelings are so hurt. If it wasn't for the fact that my dad already paid for the dress and its here, I would just cancel everything because its early enough in the planning process that we haven't paid for anything else. I'm just so thankful for FH because I know that he ALWAYS thinks about me, and ALWAYS puts me first.