i hate my wedding

Am I the only one? I hate my wedding soo much… I initially always wanting to eloped but mostly mom and so many people influence convinced me to have a big wedding… and i regret not standing up for myself earlier on, I have family and friends from out of the country coming and we let people knew about this sooo long ago and almost everything is paid for.. so can’t cancel unfortunately.., but i feel is so unfair I knew my mom and I were not financially stable to pay for a big wedding neither one of us had great amount of time, my mom and I already argue a lot so I didn’t wanted to put such a stressful situation to feed my anxiety and my conflict… fiancé and I relationship is long distance so not much he can help with…, I absolutely feel nothing but hate towards my day and myself for not standing up for myself more and for the fact I can’t cancel and say screw it…., everything we attempt something wedding related ends in discussion with my mom for some reason she complains I’m not excited about it and is like “ Lol no I didn’t even wanted this and is stressful at it’s full potential” Overall I wish I just eloped… and stand up for myself more…
Has somebody felt this way?.