I feel like everything is going wrong lately. I swear wedding planning has changed me into a scatterbrained person. I have so much going on with work, wedding planning, traveling, and paying off debt. When I get overwhelmed I'm all over the place, I can't focus.
I FORGOT MY FH'S BIRTHDAY WAS YESTERDAY. Not to mention it was a milestone birthday. I didn't get him a card, a present, or even say Happy Birthday. I was making dinner and he said sarcastically "Oh birthday burgers". That's when my eyes went wide, and I said oh sh**, because yep, I totally forgot. I've never been good with remembering dates, or cared that much about holidays. However I have never forgotten his birthday, Valentines Day, or even Father's Day before. It's honestly because I have so much on my plate. The past two weeks I've been panicking at work because I've been trying to secure a last minute move which has depleted my energy levels from the stress.
He wasn't mad, but of course someone would be hurt deep down when your own fiancé forgets your birthday. I cried last night, and I woke up this morning crying still feeling guilty. I'm the worst fiancé ever. Might as well call off the wedding at this point since I forgot his birthday lol. I even called my sister yesterday after work and was like "I have anxiety because I feel like I'm forgetting something??" Well now I know what it was.
I'm feeling like I just want life to go back to normal and be done with everything wedding. I can't handle the pressure of wedding and work, and it makes me forgot important things. I'm trying to get over it but I keep crying, I feel like a piece of crap. I am the most horrible person on earth. I might get him a cake tonight, but it almost seems pointless. What would you do?
(Edit: Every time I start my post with an "I", it changes it to a lowercase "i". Sorry it's annoying lol)