i don’t know vow renewal.

Hi. Please be gentle as this topic has made me cry for a long time.


My husband wanted to get married in vegas. 21 years ago. So I said yes as long as we could do all the things when we got back. I was 23. I hated every second of it. We had nothing. My bouquet fell apart. No pictures, no video, 3 family members. My mom. His parents didn’t go. All my family traditions and his family traditions not done. I have no good memories of that day.
I found this dress with his daughter. It’s my only special memory. I loved it so much. It’s a big princess dress with sparkles. I felt so beautiful. We got stuck in the dressing room trying it on. We laughed so hard. I wanted that dress. Because of the memory of his daughter and I and I felt so pretty in it.
We got back and nothing happened. He didn’t want to do anything. Every year he would tellMe to plan it and then say no. It caused me a lot of pain. I wanted to marry in my church. And my uncle sings it’s a wonderful world perfectly as a wedding gift to all the people in my family. I wanted that so bad. I had no shower no bachelorette party no honeymoon no bridesmaids no family. My step kids didn’t come.
And now at 21 years he said he would do it. I want my dress. That memory is all I had of my wedding and I only wore it for 20 minutes. Before I took it off. My husband said I couldn’t get it.
I would like to buy my dress. There is a picture of his mom I wanted to remake just in my dress. She was a beautiful lady. I had nothing. No cake, no dress, no family, no shower no bachelorette party no bridesmaids no pictures no family pictures no dancing, nothing.
Sorry my story is long. I have a lot of hurt. He lied a lot. What can I do? What am I allowed to do? I want it all so I can have my family traditions and in my church. And the fun stuff too. I want to feel pretty.