How to get excited again after already postponing

I'm in the same boat as you. We now have another 6 months until our wedding, as it was the first available saturday for all our vendors, but also... seemed like MAYBE it might be safe?

We're currently in lockdown so it's not even a matter of choosing to postpone - it is literally not possible legally to get married in my state right now, not even just us, a celebrant and two witnesses. I guess that makes things easier, in a way - it's not our choice?

But it still massively sucks I and I know how you feel. It's especially hard because everything is done, with the exception of some little bits and pieces, plus things we can't do until closer to the time - like seating charts, printed signs, etc.

I've tried to find little things to buy to make me look forward to our wedding and feel like it definitely will happen - like, little letter earrings in my new last initial to wear the day after the wedding. Sexy lingerie for our honeymoon. Pretty, flowy dresses I can twirl through a sunflower field on our honeymoon in, or that I can wear to cocktails with my new husband. I've tried to take the time to consider tiny details I normally might not have bothered about and organised them - fancy wooden hangers for the groom's suit. Personalized cards for each of our readers, MC, bridal party, etc. I've wrote and re-wrote our joint speech and my personalized vows. I've considered redoing projects that I thought were just okay when I finished them to make them better.

We are getting married at a winery and thankfully have a bottle of wine from them which we plan to open up on our original wedding date along with ordering a fancy meal from a really expensive upscale place, lighting candles, etc.

Trust me when I say I know how hard this is! I feel it too. Our day will come. We just need to be more patient than we originally thought. Find something to bring you joy while you wait!

I had to postpone...twice.

Me and hubby were already legally married even before our original wedding date in June 2020 due to insurance reasons, so it was never about that. So yes-it has been very very hard to be excited. I had to emotionally disconnect from almost everything for over a year, because it was too far away to think about after the second postponement, and it was too painful to think about pretty dresses while people were dying. Even now, it's hard to watch the news and wonder if my December wedding will be okay. But come hell or high water, I'm not postponing again, I can't handle it. If there are 5 people there, it will be the best event they have ever been to.

I initially planned my entire wedding on a 9 month timeline, so all my vendors have been booked for over 2 years, and thankfully ALL of them were available on my new dates. I can't thank them all enough for working with me. But aside from sending out change the dates and change the dates again, I did almost nothing and my wedding binder gathered dust. Now I'm allowing myself with guarded caution to get excited again.