*******TRIGGER WARNING******
This post has sensitive topics, please use discretion and please be mindful as I'm still grieving.
Okay, so I've been try to find the right words to say to make this. But everytime I do, I start bawling my eyes out once again.
My wedding date was September 17th, 2022. Unfortunately that day didn't come as planned. Why? I'll tell you.
Friday February 18th, it's a typical day as I get home from work and my Fiancé is getting up. (He works nights, livestock hauler) He gets dressed and starts the semi. I've got dinner made and we eat together. He leaves the house at 535pm. I never imagined that would be the last time I saw him. He called me that night around 945 or so. Which is typical, but he had a routine with his brother, where he called EVERYNIGHT at 10 pm. So I let him go and he called me back afterwards. It's 1020pm and we're talking about the PBR rodeo in Kansas City. We made a plan to go. I told him that I was going to bed and his reply was "good night, sleep well, I love you. Ill see you in the morning." Obviously that didn't happen.
I wake up on Saturday, the 19th at 730, to him not being home. (His arrival time should have been 6am) I immediately call his phone. Straight to voice-mail. It's never dead, he's probably talking to someone. Called back a few minutes later, voice-mail. My heart began to panic. Then my phone finally let me know I had a missed call and a voice-mail. It's the sherrifs office. For what?! Do I have a warrent?
They call me back and verify that he's my Fiancé. The next phrase out of his mouth still haunts my dreams. "Ma'am, I'm sorry to have to tell you this over the phone, but unfortunately, Michael died early this morning at a hog confinement site outside of Gowrie. He was crushed between two semis."
I immediately thought he payed them to prank me. There is no way this could be true. Turns out, it was. My Fiancé was gone. 210 days before my wedding.
The days and months leading up to now have been pretty rocky. Our wedding day came. I had a pretty good day. We took pictures in honor of my man and the love we shared.
I'm not looking for anything, just for someone else, anyone else that may have gone through this to know your not alone. I feel so alone all the time. Please remember to hold your hubbies, kids, and family tight. Because the world is ruthless and unkind. It doesn't care if you were supposed to be together, or if you love them.
To my husband, I'll never forget you. Please watch over me. 🙏
Until I see you again, Your wife,Miriah
