Guest Woes and Nightmares

So after many many many follow ups our guests are FINALLY getting back to us. FHs 18 have confirmed all coming. My 12.. well...

My MOH is still “on the fence” whether she is coming or not - I’m just assuming she’s not coming. I thankfully still have 2 grateful bridesmaids. I can’t really talk to anyone about my “hurt feelings” because I feel I’ll just come off as entitled (moms words) but I need to vent a tad. My aunt has confirmed she will not be coming to my wedding and had to schedule a surgery the day before - she’s had all summer for the procedure and has known about my wedding and date for a year (which she keeps forgetting when..) Fine, it’s medical i empathize but it sucks. Now. My brother just also confirmed (has also known for a year) that he will not be attending because he doesn’t have another employee at his business and can’t take time off - though he thought to remind me he took his only vacation in the last 6 years for my grandmas birthday and this would be a great reason to take another but he can’t. I’m a business owner too, I get that.. but seriously?! My parents are the only family in attendance for me now and my guest count has dropped to 6. Im so hurt and frustrated but can’t talk to anyone without suffering backlash. So I just needed to vent. And my FH said with my lack of attendance a friend of his he wanted to invite still can come - now his count is to 20 and he wants to add 2 more. I know it’s not a contest but 22 people will be there from his side and I just feel like I’m going to be left out.

Topping off my emotional predicament I experienced (what I thought wasn’t a thing) a very real wedding nightmare and I’m usually a deep enough sleeper to never even dream..I woke up startled, can’t remember much of it but I’m so done with all the crazy, bad stuff.. it was all so easy going before this last month hit.

SOS.......is it over yet?