First Breakdown

*long post with a silver lining*

With 2 months to go and details coming down to the wire. So many things have been going wrong but I haven’t been letting it bother me. I can’t control when the bad things happen even though they suck.

We are currently in the process of moving and have been for 2 weeks.. FH has been full time at the new place for those 2 weeks I’m part time 2 hours away except weekends until my teaching contract is up, tomorrow! The little details from the wedding I’ve ordered have been coming in and unlike when I usually can intercept them and put them away, FH has been receiving the mail - not opening it after our last talk. Well I let him open one thing I knew was harmless (sunnies to go with the wedding party swag) he didn’t say it but I could tell he wasn’t happy, about then he said we shouldn’t be spending money on wedding party gifts because he thinks they don’t need anything and I’m wasting money for nothing. Then I could tell he was being snarky about the other packages too, some surprises for him are included, our conversation ended abruptly and I didn’t hear from him until today.

Then I think wedding stress FINALLY got me, hard. I went to Home Depot for a project to fix a damaged window screen our cat scratched a little at the Air BNB we’ve been renting. I didn’t think it was a big deal or noticeable but FH wanted me to do it. Spent money I thought was unnecessary ($16!!) and didn’t get good info from the employee on a how to... knowing I had to make another run to IKEA after this to replace more things, I was tired and at a loss.. when two older gentlemen stopped me and asked if HD replaced my window screen because again the damage was hardly noticeable. I told them no and I had to do it and one of the guys proceeded to tell me I was steered wrong and wanted me to go to their place so he could fix it for me. I was moved he cared about my predicament so much I almost started crying right in the middle of HD. Then he walked me to the right supply isle, removed the old screen from the frame and walked me through the right way to do it, this time I couldn’t help it and became hysterical. All he did was smile and said I know you can do it but here’s my number and address in case you change your mind and want help fixing it. Definitely didn’t realize how stressed I was until this one act of kindness brought me to sobbing ugly tears in public. Okay that’s all.