Hi Everyone -
Before i get into things, let me start by saying that I am treading lightly here and am only telling part of the story in this forum so that in the off chance my friends are also on this website, it isn't entirely traceable to them. I share this because I know i am going to leave out key parts of this story, and I also know how this could be misinterpreted, so I just ask you to be kind in your responses to me as I am already feeling down.
Long story short, I am getting married in a month and my fiance and I asked two of our friends to be our matron of honor and best man. We were both in their wedding in the same roles six months ago.
My disappointment probably began during their wedding planning process, where i felt like I was being treated like a secretary and not a friend. Even though the bride told me that all I would have to do is show up and stand beside her on her big day, I ended up being responsible for nearly all of the decorations (centerpieces, signs, bridal suite, props for photos with the photographer, and also communicating with the florist). I didn't mind helping her out, but I would regularly receive emails from her with lists of things she expected me to do. I don't think she intended for it to come across in such a bossy manner and i am sensitive to that, especially now that I am planning my own wedding and know how much there is to be done. Still, it didn't feel great.
When it came to planning a bachelorette party for her, she was exceptionally difficult (and so was her now husband). They couldn't decide if they wanted separate or joint parties, and so in the end we threw them each a separate day where we spent time with them 1:1 and planned trips, as well as a joint party with friends and family. These trips and parties alone cost us over $1.5k by the time we were finished.
I've been feeling frustrated for a while, but ultimately we decided to ask them to be in our wedding because FH and I had a long talk about things and felt that we needed to give them the benefit of the doubt that maybe it wasn't that they were being unkind intentionally, but rather that they may have just been very busy/stressed planning and therefore not really thinking about ways to be thoughtful toward us. We all make mistakes, and we really wanted to look past how we felt during their planning process.
Well, now we are a month out from our wedding. We have had no bachelor or bachelorette party, and it sounds like one will not be occurring. In addition, they have not really helped us with much of anything (which, admittedly, we haven't asked for much help, but it's hard to ask for help when you feel like your friends aren't present) and we are just feeling supremely disappointed. To be clear, I know it's not to be "expected" that one has a bachelor or bachelorette party... I honestly don't even care about the party. I am just feeling down on myself and wondering if there is something wrong with me that makes it so that people wouldn't want to celebrate me or be there for me in the same way (or half of the same way) I was for them. I hope that makes sense. I just put so much time into their wedding, and this whole time I was (maybe wrongly) thinking "oh, this stage will pass, and when its your time they will be there for you too." So, it's disappointing to feel so alone throughout this.
I should add that we did sit down with them about three months ago and had a very clear conversation where we told them how we were feeling and we left on what I thought was the same page. Bachelor parties were discussed during that time and we did share that this was something we would probably appreciate having. They seemed receptive which is what is so confusing.
Why am I posting this? I don't know. I just feel lousy and feel like I need to talk it out somewhere or else I worry I am going to be resentful and let this cloud our big day since we will be stuck sharing it with them when right now they aren't really the type of friends we would want to share such intimate moments with so closely. Aside from this, the planning process has been a breeze and I have felt relaxed and fine throughout. I am not planning to kick them from the wedding party or anything like that - why add drama when there hasn't been any thus far?
Any reassuring words, gentle reminders of how I could handle things differently, or similar stories would be appreciated.