Today I felt like after 3 months I was FINALLY able to take a deep breath. I spoke with my venue today and will be able to have the wedding my FH and I have been planning for almost 18 months!! We could have gotten married a while ago, small ceremony or courthouse and then a reception, but we decided we wanted to have a wedding and include our closest family and friends and then COVID happened. But so glad this next phase reduced restrictions enough for us to proceed on our wedding date.
I have been trying to keep optimistic. FH kept saying. "it will all work out." I told my brother, the officiant, I was getting married 7/18 one way or another - he would be marrying us at a venue or at our house. But deep down I wanted what I had been planning.
I had my 1st wedding dress fitting June 1st and the 2nd June 13th.. but even though I loved my dress, all the uncertainty wouldn't let me enjoy the moments. I even had a zoom session for 2 of my closest out of town friends for the last fitting trying to just stay positive and do positive fun things. I was kind of excited, but kept thinking, where will I be wearing this dress, a wedding venue or my backyard? My Matron OH and Maid OH (my daughter) gave me a beautiful pre-wedding celebration last Saturday at my house that was great (chose not to call it a shower) but even though I enjoyed it, there were those questions in the back of my mind.
But now,,,, I can EXHALE. I will have my 3rd dress fitting this Thursday and I will finally FEEL like a bride. FH has appt at tux shop Saturday. I can get enjoyment from getting back into finalizing our last minute details. I need to have my engagement ring and wedding band enhancer sized, but my jewelry store is just opening so there may not be enough time so I may have to have a ring with a guard on it, but considering everything else, that will be the least of my concerns. I'm just soo ready to get married. My fellow 2020 Brides, stay encouraged!
