Engagement Redo????

Ok, so I’ve been engaged since August 2018. Nothing crazy, just a surprise proposal in the kitchen with no ring at the moment . Well my FH wasn’t really pleased with the way I reacted (because I didn’t scream & cry). We later went together to get a ring & my best friend at the time got to see but it was still a surprise to me. Well fast fwd over a year later , we had secured a venue, started to plan & then cancelled the wedding due to outside factors. After, we planned to just go to JOP & have a honeymoon that was twice as special as it would have been after also paying for a wedding. Keep in mind we’re in our 20s & while finances are a little better, we’re really still in no position to plan a wedding. Also, I just recently lost my engagement ring in October due to losing weight & it being too big, it slipped off while we were on a night out never to be seen again. The ring was inexpensive but still MY RING that was sentimental for us both. So I will be receiving a new one for Christmas. Well thanksgiving of this year, my FH comes to me with the proposal that we should still have the wedding (that’s scheduled for May 29th) & just ignore the outside drama surrounding our relationship. Mind you we’ve canceled the venue & lost $500 due to non refundable deposit. I didn’t necessarily agree because I didn’t want to push the date back AGAIN & I was content with the JOP plan. Close friends & family & some outsiders knew we were engaged but there was never a big announcement. Today I thought about it & tried to convince myself that it doesn’t matter what others think because after we get married & even now, it’s just us. Our household or lives shouldn’t really concern others. Which is true but My question is: is it tacky to have an engagement redo??? This past year hasn’t been the most ideal for either of us but would a cliche Christmas engagement & a pushed back date really been the end of the world? Is it ideal to try to do this over again, especially after a whole year already engaged?


Asking for personal opinions, not nasty or judgmental comments