So our wedding is ten days away....and I am absolutely dreading it. I've been nervous beginning about a week ago, but now that it's getting this close I am 100% regretting going through with the big wedding deal. Of course I want to marry my FH, and I'm excited about being married to him. But I hate everything about the actual wedding event. I absolutely hate being the center of attention, I hate people looking at me, I hate speaking in front of people, I hate dancing, I generally hate socializing unless it's with very small groups of people I know really well. And here I am going to walk down the aisle in front of 150 people, like 125 of whom I barely know, and I am going to be miserable the entire day from start to finish. There's not a single thing I'm looking forward to and it's horrible! I wish I could just wake up the day after the wedding and have everything be over.
Then I feel bad because my FH is super excited for the wedding, and I know I'm probably going to be in a bad mood the entire day because I hate everything that's happening, and it'll end up ruining his day, too.
How can I possibly cope with this anxiety and dread for the next ten days, and then at the wedding itself?!