OMG ladies! This is it! We've hit the 99 days mark!! I can't believe it! It has felt like it has taken FOREVER to get here! And now that we're here, I'm freaking out!! For almost 2 years now, I've been reading the forums, and contributing to others' discussions. All that time, I would read about brides who were freaking out once they reached this stage. It's like they realized how much stuff there is left to do or to pay for, and only 99 days left to do it all. Sometimes it can seem like an impossible task. What I find funny, is that all those times reading those posts, I was always thinking, "what are they freaking out for, there's plenty of time for all that." Little did I know that some kind of cosmic shift takes place in us when we get this close to the weddings we've been planning for sometimes years!
I've always felt like a very chill bride, not prone to freak-outs or tantrums, pretty go with the flow kind of lady. But all of a sudden, I'm looking at my lists, and at how much (or little) time is left until the wedding, and I'm feeling a kind of panic I've never felt before. Like how is all of this going to get done? How is it all going to get paid for? Are all the people I'm counting on (wedding party) going to come through for me? That last one is hard, because I generally try to only count on myself when things are important. I don't have any real worries about my wedding party, just general panic at the whole situation.
So, I've learned something new after more than 500 days on Wedding Wire. You can't really relate to any of these situations until you're in them. I used to think "I'll never freak out like that when I get that close. Why would I? I have everything perfectly planned and organized." LOL right. Now I'm here and thinking to myself, "you're an idiot."
I'll be ok. Most things I think we're right on track and no need to worry. We're having our menu tasting at our venue in a couple weeks, I'm having a second hair trial next weekend (I wasn't happy with the first), my dress alterations are right on track, my ladies have ordered their dresses, men will order their attire next week. However there are still a couple of things that feel behind, and I need to get going quickly. I still don't have a bakery for our dessert bar. I don't have my shoes yet. I don't have the rest of the décor pieces to finish my centerpieces. I just feel halfway done on so many things!!
Anyway, thanks for reading my long freakout! I really am surprised to find myself in this position. I always thought I was too chill to freak out at the thought of our countdown hitting double digits. I was wrong. The good news is that it won't be long now before I get to marry the love of my life!!
