Hello friends! I need some advice for some bridesmaid drama I’m dealing with. Let me apologize in advance, as this will probably be kinda long.
I had two very close friends, let’s say their names are Audrey and Kelsey. I’ve been friends with them since my college days, which is about 7-9 years. These ladies are my best friends, like text all day, know all of the personal details of my life, etc. We all live in different cities in different states, but we make it a point to see each other a few times a year. All of our partners are also pretty close and we go on couples trips together.
So in late 2018, Audrey gets engaged, and she announces that Kelsey and I are the co-maids of honor. I wasn’t able to attend her engagement party because it was short notice and I lived very far away at the time, but I tried to be as supportive as I possibly could from the distance. Audrey is a really independent person, but I tried to make sure I was there to support her.
Time goes on, and she settles on a date for 2020 (wayyyyyyy before COVID was a thing) and I decided as her maid of honor that I would throw her a bridal shower, especially since I didn’t make it to the engagement dinner. And y’all, this is like my sister, so it meant a lot to me to do this for her. She had over 10 bridesmaids, but I paid for the bridal shower 100% myself because I felt like she deserved it. This was Nov 2019.
So, Dec 2019 comes around and my fiancé proposes. I knew that Kelsey and Audrey would be my maid and matron of honor, but I hold out on announcing anything about my wedding due to the fact that her wedding was 3 months away. Whelp, then COVID happened. She had to push her wedding back to June 2020. It’s getting closer to June, and there’s a really bad COVID outbreak in our state.
The CDC is not recommending ANY types of gatherings, especially for folks that are high risk. My fiancé and members of our family that we live with are high risk. My fiancé and I spoke to my fiancé’s doctor, and she highly recommended against going to the wedding due to my fiancé’s condition. I considered going into isolation just so that I wouldn’t miss it, but we decide that it wasn’t worth the risk considering that I would travel alone to the city where she lives. I was heart broken to not be able to make it, but I couldn’t risk my future husband’s life, which in hindsight, I was right in being nervous as not one single person wore mask in their indoor venue. I called her a week after their honeymoon to check in and see if she was upset with me, and she swore that everything is fine between us.
So, fast forward a few months and I’m finally beginning to plan my own wedding. The energy between myself and my two friends is just off. We’re still talking everyday, but I wasn’t getting much support from them when I asked for their opinions. There’s very little excitement compared to the excitement we had for Audreys wedding. I had to ask if anyone had plans for my bridal shower and bachelorette, and I eventually just started to plan these myself. After a while, i started to feel like I wasn’t worth celebrating and that I was asking too much when I asked Kelsey and Aubrey to literally do anything. I would ask about my Bach trip, dresses they would wear, etc, but the energy was just low.
When planning our engagement party, I made a specific request for them and that request was being ignored. Finally I just snapped on Aubrey due to my resentment, and she and I fall out. She tells me that my wedding is more tedious than hers, and says that I’m expecting too much from her as a friend. I technically only fell out with Audrey, but Kelsey is also not speaking to me. It’s been a month since I’ve talked to either of them and I just feel so lonely in this process. I’m not close to a lot of my family members, including my parents so all I have at the moment is my fiancé to run things over with.
My fiancé is now asking me if we should keep them in their positions considering their past behavior and that we aren’t talking right now. My family is encouraging me to not have them in the wedding at all, but that’s not what I want. They think that they’re still upset that I didn’t go to Aubrey’s wedding last year. I just want my friends to be apart of this process with me like a lot of other brides. What would y’all do in my situation? I don’t have a lot of friends, so there’s no options to really replace them, and honestly I just want my friends back.