Has anyone all of a sudden feel anxious or sad about your wedding. Let me clarify it has nothing to do with my FH as we have a great relationship and he is amazing. It is me. I was excited that FH agreed to at least let my brother walk me down the aisle and we would have just two friends. I asked my big brother (he has been the man in my life forever and I lost my dad when I was 13) and he said he will think about it. Not because he is a jerk but I figured he may say no because he has worse social anxiety more than my FH and of course I do not want to make him feel awkward either. I if anything wanted him to know he would be important to me on the day whether he is there or not. He may come through but I would not be surprised if she chooses not to and mostly I just want him to be happy for me. All of a sudden it just hit me that I would be walking alone. I kind of knew that may be the case but it really hit me that I do not have parents. Sometimes I see my friends lifestyles or their weddings where they had their parents or a full wedding and I easily start focusing on what I lack rather than what I do have and I get sad and depressed. Apart of me wanted to tell FH that if I am going to elope then let's go elsewhere and I will pay for it all but I doubt that would make me feel better or would it. I am excited about our venue and that my BFF will be there but I guess for the past couple of days that has disappeared and I cannot focus on the good parts of it and almost feel it is important. I guess I just need to write out my thoughts and feelings as I said a little something to my FH but I do not go into detail because I do not think he will understand and like some men he will listen but is not like a woman in regards to the advice department ya know? LOL. Thanks for reading if you did.
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