a Freaking Out Happened on the Way to the Fitting

Today was my third alterations fitting and I was freaking out! I was so anxious about this appointment that I cried a little as I drove an hour to meet my mother at the bridal boutique. My mom had previously made some comments to me about how my dress didn't zip at the last appointment and that I ate too much at the tasting.

I love my mother. I really do, but sometimes she says things without thinking of their effects. My sister tried to point this out to her before. My mom and I don't always communicate well. She's a good person; the kind that even my friends enjoy being around. One friend calls my mother often to confide in her.

My mom raised four kids; two of whom have Asperger's Syndrome. I am one of those two. I'm the oldest. The two without disabilities are already married off. Dating was always a challenge for me, until I found the right guy. He's neurotypical, which means he is not on the Autism Spectrum of disorders. In fact, he doesn't have any disabilities. My family has loved him from day one. He is very good to me and always encourages me to reach for my success, to do the right thing and make the right choices. I am very lucky and grateful for everything that I have been given by my parents and my family, and for the love of my fiancé.

So today, I panicked on my way to the fitting. I was worried about whether or not my dress was going to be too small. When I arrived, I was visibly upset and on the verge of bursting into tears an hour before my appointment. I had tried to order a decaf coffee from a natural-style, independent looking coffee shop, without success which only succeeded in adding frustration to my temperament. My mom came to my rescue. She handed me a ten and drove me to Starbucks, in traffic, and told me that she was treating me to a coffee. She saw that I needed something to ease my anxiety and didn't want me to have a meltdown in the store. When we returned, I tried on the dress with the new bustier we had ordered at the last fitting and, you know what? The dress zipped up perfectly! The dress was not even tight! I felt so relieved. I love my mom and I'm glad she was there!