3 month vow of abstinence till wedding night! tmi

So some may feel this is TMI but I thought I'd share what I'm doing. I've always wanted to be a virgin bride, because I always felt like the first time should be that special moment with your forever someone, at least for me. Well I met my fiance 8 years ago and all those vows I had changed, I knew he was all I wanted but I didn't know if we would ever become something more than friends, so I changed my plans, he had to be the first. I never felt the need for it before and it wasn't because he got me hot and bothered (believe me he does), but something in me told me he was the one to break the vow for. Well we became a couple and are still together and we have 2 kids together, now I want to feel the way I did that first time. My fiance and I have high libidos so this has been really hard for him and I. I don't undress around him, I changed my diet, exercise more, working on my confidence, so this way I'm a whole new person on our wedding night. As a mom of 2 whose body didn't bounce right back I hated myself, I'm changing myself and loving myself and hopefully it shows. Is this weird? I probably didn't explain it right.