Activity for future mrs

Marrying fh VERY soon and i think i'm gay... i don't know what to do... should i follow through with the wedding? is it just nerves? I love my fh VERY VERY much but have always been more attracted to women...i don't know what to do...

I'm in a bind with my food arrangments. Ideally, i would love to have a caterer. It would make everything so much easier in so many ways, i'm just don't think we can afford it... can i do the food myself and still keep it easy and classy? How? Help...