Terrible wedding

Am I the only who feels like their wedding was a total mess? I ended up getting pregnant three months before my wedding.. found out it was twins.. which of course I have been growing very fast.. but I didn’t get to have “the bachelorette” party of a lifetime.. I don’t get a honeymoon because of the fact that the babies will come when we’re able to take off.. and on top of ALL of that.. my now husband was drunk before we were ever announced, our first dance was basically him bouncing up and down on his feet, I ended up having an anxiety attack.. he spent most of the night outside away from me smoking and drinking and complained anytime I asked him to come in because he was wasted.. we ended the night with him arguing with me about him not having any food when I watched him do everything except for licking the plate.. I feel like we spent $25,000 on absolutely nothing and I’m beyond upset about the story I’m going to end up telling my children.. All I wanted was to have the wedding of my dreams.. even though I had to sacrifice a lot with being pregnant.. I couldn’t even have that..