It's been a while since I've been on here, but didn't know where else to turn for some advice.
My husband and I will be celebrating our 1 year wedding anniversary next month. I can't believe how quickly this year has flown by! We moved to a new state and have endured many trials as well as experienced some great new adventures together. Needless to say, I'm so happy I married the man I did. I feel more in love with him today than I did on our wedding day (although I loved him immensely then too)!
Anyway, with our anniversary coming up, I find myself thinking back to our wedding day almost constantly and looking at photos of us from that very special day. But I have one major problem; I can't stop feeling resentment and anger towards the things that went wrong and the people who caused those problems on our wedding day.
In all honesty, I would say 80% of our wedding day was pure magical bliss, but 20% of it just plain sucked. From my in-laws being horrible people who ruined little moments throughout the day, to our DOC not really doing her job, and of course the DJ basically ruining the final hours of our special day (I wrote a previous post about all the things that went wrong if you're interested). I always start out with optimism, thinking of all the great things about our wedding day and smiling at the beautiful photos, but then those thoughts quickly turn to anger and resentment towards above mentioned people and certain photos trigger my negative thoughts and make them worse, turning me into a depressed blob that wishes so so badly she could redo her wedding differently.
Has anyone else experienced anything like this? How do/did you get past all this and just focus/remember the good parts of your special day? I'm tired of feeling bad about my wedding, because it really was a wonderful day, but these darn negative thoughts just won't leave me be!