I think I just need some virtual "hugs"....This is my second marriage...I'm 55. Had severe sleep apnea for many years which caused many issues..gained weight....had double jaw surgery and genioplasty which cured the sleep apnea...yay! lost about 35 pounds...yay! But...still bigger then I want to be...plus I may never have feeling in the lower part of my face (which changed from the surgery)...so its difficult to figure out how to smile naturally...so since the surgery 2 years ago I have avoided photos. Then add the age on top of that...I just look into a mirror and freak out. Obviously I want what every bride wants...to walk down the aisle and feel beautiful.....this is obviously a blatant request for some uplifting words!