dan is deing....yeterdayI realized that this was true and there is noothing i can do about it but try to ...help it end well for him.. so first im made him a dnr.... and today(both after alot of thought and prayer and advice from good advisors...)...i have put him on palitive care as of today.. means no more treatment, just comfort care..I just dont want him in pain any more. I think the treatment is pointless and i hate them poking at him and stuff..plus in trying to keep him alive they couldnt treat his pain anymore!. he doesnt know that ive done this ..I hope to tell him soon but ...dont know yet..I just felt it was time. .. very painful to me.....very. but i love him. so much.
Im planning his funeral...its just something that has to be done. pray his mom doesnt fight me on my ideas even though she is probably paying for it. I know they who pay get to make the decioins its just, we cant afford this at all.